For this month’s Round Table, we’re discussing what parts of being Kemetic we enjoy the most and how it has enriched our lives.
I had to give this some thought because I’ve realized I found it extremely hard to put all of it in words. That’s why the simple title. Being Kemetic has brought immense joy in my life.
Knowing that the Gods are always there, watching over me, even when I feel sad, distressed and alone is soothing for my soul. In times of deep sorrow I always know they’re there to protect and guide me. I guess you could say I have a lot of faith. To be honest, they’ve never let me down. A lot of times they’ve done things in unexpected ways, things at which I have expressed my dismay, but which ultimately lead to good.
Like when Sekhmet appeared out of nowhere and announced that something incredibly hurtful will come my way and which will ultimately lead to healing some very old and deep wounds. Have faith and stay strong, I will help you heal. You won’t like what will happen, you will hurt, you will cry. But that’s when your true healing will begin and you will be stronger and a better person for it. At the time I was really afraid. I had no idea what exactly was coming my way. The gods can be quite vague at times. But the her reassuring tone and her reminder to have faith and keep strong were incredibly helpful. I’ll admit my first thought was along the lines of ‘Oh for eff’s sake, what now?!? Haven’t I had enough shit this year?’ I asked for more information but nothing came. And this was the first time she every appeared all of a sudden, offering help. I didn’t call on her at all. In fact, at the time I was busy with Ptah. (yes, I think we can assume there was some connection, it has crossed my mind). She never asked for anything in return (although I do feel obliged). And when it all hit the fan I knew what she meant. A two decade old secret that changed my life forever came out. It hurt deeply. I cried, I howled crying on the floor. I asked questions to which I received very unsatisfactory answers (which somehow made matters worse). But somehow I started feeling better. A short time after that even my anxiety was gone. It was like she lifted it all away.
This is the most recent example. And this came from a goddess I have had very little involvement with in the past. I don’t know how much more involvement will there be from now on, but I can say in the past three months or so since this happened, there has been none. It’s true what some say: the gods sometimes break you to make you. And I personally don’t have a problem with that.
I truly believe that all the heka I perform, all the devotionals, prayers, offerings are helping me grow on a multitude of levels. I have become accustomed to watching my words more (I still falter at times but I know I’ve improved). I have become more patient, and this was a real struggle, I never used to have any patience for anything other than reading. I have become more calm. I do certain things in moderation rather than burn out. I still have moments when I panic and lash out rather than see things clearly but even those moments are a lot more rare these days. I don’t get upset over certain things as much as I used to. I understand people and their motivations better. I’ve become a better judge of character. I’ve learned to be proud of my work. All these things and countless more are ways in which being Kemetic has improved my life.
I have learned lessons of patience, keeping silent and carrying on from Thoth. He’s also helped me with my writing and my studies.
I have learned about Death, the Other Side, Courage, and certain heka from Anubis.
I have learned about anger, loyalty, and passion from Seth. And about revenge.
I can’t begin to tell you what these lessons were and what shape they took but I can honestly say that they were incredibly valuable and they made me a better person. And these are but a few. They all have taught me very much along the years. Of course, there had to be a lot of work from my part too. It wasn’t all just handed on a silver platter. I have made mistakes (some were royal screw-ups actually), but you know the saying … chop wood, carry water.
And, of course, getting in contact with other Kemetics. I think there was a real lack of that until I started this blog. And I don’t just mean the other bloggers, I mean all the others I’ve met and from whom I am always learning. Keep awesome, people!
All the best and countless blessings,
Find all the responses for this month here.